My life has been changed and transformed by these words spoken to me, “Don’t go stay with me!” It was a very difficult time and during that period I did not even have a prayer life but something dramatic happened. I had lost my will to live and wanted to end it all. It was at this dark time that I had an encounter with God, my Abba Father and surrendered totally to Him. He awakened me every morning to come and spend time with Him. At first it was very awkward with me not knowing what to do or say. Then it happened. One morning very early before dawn; I was drunken with sleep and as I knelt at the dining room table, rambled on without comprehending what I was saying. Finally in complete frustration said from within, “Father, I do not know how to pray. I am going back to bed!” Immediately, Abba Father spoke audibly to me, “Don’t go, stay with Me!” Instantly at 2 a.m. in the morning it was as if the noon day sun was shining and I began searching all over the room to find where this comforting voice was coming from. Like a reflex action though, my legs did a U-turn on my knees. This time prayer came forth with great utterance. A fire ignited within me for the presence of Yahweh. He became my passion to breathe and exhale! His breath, Jehovah Shammah whose presence I dare not awaken from sleep without. To arise at midnight to spend hour after hour talking to Him until the breaking of dawn; Pausing to frequently listen as He speaks words of comfort and hope. Morning has arisen; He is tugging at me telling me it is time to go. Reluctantly glancing at the time I turn to leave with the comfort of knowing that we will spend the evening together before retiring for the night. And then I will have the midnight until the dawning of day. Words cannot describe this intimacy with Abba Father. There is no other relationship like it; the joy of talking every moment of the day with Him; whispering to Him constantly reminding Him of my love and passion for Him. Walking in the midst of trouble, His presence surrounds me which enables me to endure hardships and trials. Relatives and friends do not understand though some may forsake and desert me yet His presence brings peace. His anointing empowers me to forgive and display His love, in His presence strips away everything that hinders; every work of the flesh is burnt away. In His presence I am free to praise Him despite how I may feel. To breathe in the breath of God there is never a dull moment with the realization that my passion is to fulfill the purpose of God being enlightened with the understanding that my life is hidden in Christ but lately I have heard these words, “Return my love!”
Wherever you are on your journey, have you been fervent in your walk with the LORD? Pause right there for a few minutes, the Word is speaking from the book of Ezekiel 16:6-15. (6)”And when I passed by thee, and saw thee polluted in thine own blood, I said unto thee when thou wast in thy blood, live, yea, I said unto thee when thou wast in thy blood live.” (7)”I have caused thee to multiply as the bud of the field, and thou hast increased and waxen great, and thou art come to excellent ornaments: they breasts are fashioned, and thine hair grown, whereas thou wast naked and bare.” (8)”Now when I passed by thee, and looked upon thee, behold, thy time was the time for love; and I spread my skirt over thee, and covered thy nakedness: yea, I swear unto thee, and entered into a covenant with thee, saith the LORD GOD, and thou becamest mine.” (9)”Then washed I thee with water; yea, I thoroughly washed away thy blood from thee, and I anointed thee with oil.” (10)”I clothed thee also with broidered work, and washed thee with badger’s skin, and I girded thee about with fine linen, and I covered thee with silk.” (11)”I decked thee also with ornaments, and I put bracelets upon thy hands, and a chain on thy neck.” (12)”And I put a jewel on thy forehead, and earrings in thine ears, and a beautiful crown upon thine head.” The Word is still speaking please continue to read, (13)”Thus wast thou decked with gold and silver, and thy raiment was of fine linen, and silk, and broided work; thou didst eat fine flour, and honey, and oil: and thou wast exceeding beautiful, and thou didst prosper into a kingdom.” I hear these words even louder, return my love! Is it possible you and I have played the harlot on Yahweh? Could it be even after all Abba Father has done for you still, have you (me too) abandoned the secret place of His presence? While you are thinking about it; let’s go to (15)”But thou didst trust in thine own beauty, and played the harlot because of thy renown, and pourdst out thy fornications on every one that passed by his it was.” Is it possible that you (me too) have prostituted the gifts that Yahweh has entrusted you with? Return my love!
You may have become so busy traveling, preaching, teaching and doing ministry and ministering to others that just maybe you have neglected to keep your divine appointments in the secret place of Yahweh’s presence. Could it be, you are only going through the motions and warming up so to speak yesterday’s messages without getting a fresh Word from the secret place? Is it possible for you to be moving prophetically without instructions from the throne room of Abba Father’s presence? Could it be, you have gone on without Him and cannot hear Abba Father so lovingly speaking to you, “Return my love!” Listen, one morning as I was hastening through the hallway of my home. I was walking into one of my children’s rooms, when suddenly I could feel a strong presence of the LORD coming from the room, I had dedicated to Him. A beautiful light was emanating from there but I had not been spending much time in there lately; instead I was all over the house praying in different areas. I felt my Abba Father drawing me as He spoke so lovingly, “Come in here my beloved and spend time with Me, I miss you!”
Take a moment right now to reflect on where Yahweh has brought you from and examine yourself (me too) while He is still lovingly wooing after you. For His judgement is even at the door! These words, “Don’t go stay with Me!” are the words that have changed my life forever yet I had allowed becoming too busy taking care of everyone and everything else to cause me to be missing from the secret place of His presence. I have taken heed to Abba Father’s wooing call and now returned. The question is though, Can you hear Him and will you return and repent? I hear those words resounding, “Return my Love!